Who cries over hair? I do.

This is true. I came home last night to David taking the clippers to his head and buzzing it as short as the clippers would let him. I was rather traumatized. I felt like someone else was in our room, and it freaked me out. I initially laughed when i saw him, then broke into tears. I didn't think i would be this sad over hair, but alas, i miss his red locks so much.

Trip to Canada-Officially up. Only 3 months late.

So you can expect the Trip to Mexico to be up in march or April :)

October 9^th-18^th, 2009

So, David and I hadn’t taken the time to sit down and write about our trip to Canada in October, so we are doing it now.

Friday, October 9^th, 2009-We left on a Friday morning to the airport which turned into an entire day trip because our plane was so late due to weather. So, once we got to Canada, we got our luggage and went outside to look for David’s dad (James), and it was…raining. I hated it too cold. David’s dad doesn’t have a cell phone so it took a little longer to find him since we couldn’t just call. Once we found him I had my first bit of Canadian food, Harvey’s. It was hamburgers, and I only thought they were okay. They were a weird texture.

After Harvey’s we went to Grandma Richards and hung out for a bit until Gwen could come get David and I. Grandma Richards is funny, down side, I smelt like smoke when I came out of there. Gwen finally got us and took us to David’s moms (Susan) house which is where we were staying during our trip.

At Mom Richards, we visited with her for a while and she gave us a whole bunch of Canadian merchandise which was funny because it seems anytime she send us something there is something in there to represent Canada. We got this bag full of stuff that had t-shirts in it, umbrella hat, coffee mugs, stickers, socks, buttons, and the infamous delicious Homemade Strawberry Jam, among other things that I can’t remember right now. After that it was interesting watching the news in Canada, I liked it better. It would show the name of the country/continent, that they were talking about and then present all the news in that location, rather interesting and easier for me to follow. Then we hit the sack.

Saturday, October 10^th, 2009- We got up, got ready, and went outside, which it was a brisk cold and there was SO much corn! I’d never seen corn on the stalks up close so that was neat to me. I got to see Susan’s house in the day time too and it was a cute little quaint place, a little farm house. A guy from a car rental place came and got us and took us into Oshawa to rent a car for the day. Then David took me to Parkwood which is Xavier’s mansion in the X-Men movies. It was closed though, so we walked the grounds which were pretty and I saw a squirrel. It was SO fat lol. All the animals were fat, stinking hilarious.

After Parkwood, we went to Adale’s place where I got to officially meet our niece Rylee, and Adale’s fiancé, Dan. Rylee was too cute and such a little tease. I finally got to see all of Adale’s creepy crawlers too, which was not so cute. Bleh, to insects and reptiles.

We left their place and had Tim Hortons which is SO good. One of my favorite Canadian food places! Yum! Okay, now we go to Lars and Cyndi’s house out in the trees. When we got there only Marianne (pronounced Mayanna) and Lars were there. Cyndi and Asta were down the street at Asta’s horseback riding lesson. We sat in the kitchen chatting for a while, and I was very impressed with Marianne’s involvement in conversations, when she was so young, and yet, she was so genuine. She gave us the tour of the house and of her room, and played a little number on the piano for David’s out of her Disney book. I believe it was “Wish Upon a Star” from Pinocchio. After the tour we went outside to see a path that Lars had just made, where he showed us the oak trees were coming in and the bird and owl boxes her made. It was a beautiful walk and neat to hear the things he had to say, though at one point it got awkward on my end. Kind of funny actually, because it was only a coincidence. He was saying how white man would come into the forest and would pay to shoot animals just to take home their trophy, to “prove” that he was a man. Well, I automatically am thinking that he is taking a shot at Grandpa Garth, thinking maybe David told him about Grandpa, when Lars doesn’t really like American’s to begin with so I didn’t’ know how to respond. Luckily, David chimed in with the benefits to the community when those hunters come in.

Shortly after this little awkward moment happened, Aunt Cyndi totally jumped out of the trees trying to scare everyone, and that….was my introduction to meeting Aunt Cyndi lol. We finished our walk and went inside, had pie and visited with everyone and I met Asta. She was also very intelligent and genuine like Marianne was which I thought was a wonderful characteristic in girls so young. We finished chatting then David and I left to go to meet his friends in Whitby.

We got there a little early so we ended up going to the Putting Edge playing cosmic mini golf. I tried to count out Canadian money there, but apparently did it all wrong because David apologized to the cashier for his “American wife” lol. Putting Edge was very coo. Way better than King Putt in Vegas. It was bigger, and the obstacles were more fun. After our game we were to Jack Astors, for me to meet David’s friends that I hadn’t met yet. We pretty much just ate and chatted and David LOVED being out with HIS friends. Michelle Junkin, Julie Westover and her boyfriend, Neal Strickland and his girlfriend, Dan Clarke, Erin Strickland, his sister Lisa and her boyfriend, Jennifer Gearing and her boyfriend, and Chrys Bodurka and his girlfriend Ashley all showed up. Very fun!

It got late there and everyone left, but David and I weren’t tired yet so we went to Lake View Park and walked down the pier on Lake Ontario. David says it is more beautiful at night. Something really cool though was you could see a little light across it which was Buffalo, NY. I liked that. It started getting cold so we left to go home, but stopped at a convenience store first to get cereal and milk for the next morning.

Sunday, October 11^th, 2009- This day we got up and went to church with James, Gwen, Lisa, and Gwen’s boyfriend, Dave. It was hands down THE smallest ward I had ever been to. It was very neat though because apparently everyone had been waiting to meet me so I had multiple people coming up and giving me hugs before I even knew their names lol. I thought that was sweet and something that will never happen again.

We left church, took the rental car back and changed out of church clothes, then we all headed up to the Kydd cottage in Haliburton for Thanksgiving. On the way we stopped at Swiss Chalet. That was very good. Haliburton- Holy tiny little cottage in the cold!!! I then met, Uncle Brian, Aunt Linda and Uncle Dennis, and their daughter Alexandra. After meeting everyone David, me, Susan, Gwen and Dave all walked up to a ski lift thing called Sir Sams Inn. It was quite the little hike, but gorgeous in the end. The colors represented Canada so well to me. We took several pictures, and rolled around in the grass. Then we walked back to the cottage where then David and I left on our own adventure, to the forest at the back of the cottage, which was 100 acres of Grandad’s property. We went on a walk, then we went back home where we had my first Canadian Thanksgiving.

We ate all we could eat, then Gwen and Dave took us home and on the way stopped at Uncle Todd’s, and met him and his sons, Travys, Jason, and Dayne. It was such a boy pad. All 4 boys and their dog Timber. We left to go home and on the way saw my first raccoon! It was SO cute I was excited! I wanted a picture, but David hopped out of the car and scared it. Sad.

Monday, October 12^th, 2009- It was James birthday and he came and got us and took us to the Tyrone Mill which was a 150 some old mill. Then he took us to the house David grew up in. That was something really neat to me. I was pretty sad that it was sold before we got up to Canada so David and I couldn’t stay there. It was a beautiful home and the spirit there was nice. It was set up so original. I can honestly say I’d have moved to Canada for that house. I loved it. After that we went to Purple Woods and saw where the maple comes from. We went back to Adale and Dan’s visited with them a while, went and had Whistle Dogs (bacon and cheese on a hot dog), then me met Lisa and her boyfriend and went to my very first hockey game. It was beautiful. I loved the sound of the puck making contact with the stick, and the atmosphere. I wouldn’t mind going to another game. We saw the Oshawa Generals play the Kingston Frontenacs. After the game we went back to Grandma Richards and Gwen and Dave joined us all. Gramps was up this time. We took James out for his birthday dinner to Mr. Greek. Home.

Tuesday, October 13^th, 2009- We slept in this day, and then went to Grandma Kydd’s for lunch. David asked her to make her homemade macaroni and cheese for me. It was good except the onions. It kind of ruined it for me. I really liked being that their house. It was a nice home and I especially loved Grandad’s cane chairs. They were amazing, a very neat hobby to have. I also loved Gramdma’s glass, she had so much and it was all very unique. I thought it was kind of funny Grandad on a “leash” though. It made me laugh; we were teasing him about it. The last thing I loved about the house was grandma’s apple pie. It was THE most delicious thing I have ever tasted. It was perfect.

We had to rush to leave there to go to the Johnston’s for dinner. I must’ve gotten so fat, everyone wanted to feed us. Okay, so funny, we get to the Johnston’s and David and I go to set our coats down in David J’s room, but couldn’t find a light and it was pitch black in there, then all the sudden someone turns on a light all I got startled by about 100 figures set up looking at me. Oh, David J. Dinner was nice, the Sowchuck’s came and David J’s gf Tara, me, David J, David, and Michael sat around listening to music and playing Nintendo 64-Bomber man.

Once dinner was over, David and I left to Uncle Don and Aunt Cheryl’s. They were so kind. I uploaded pictures from the wedding from face book onto their computer and we all talked on the couch. Our stay was pretty short there because it was so late.

Wednesday, October 14^th, 2009- This day David and I went in to Toronto on the GO Train. First, we went to the CN Tower for lunch. That was very cool. The CN Tower is the tallest freestanding building in the world and is much like the Stratosphere in Vegas. The restaurant we went to was similar to the one at the Stratosphere in Vegas too. Nice food, it rotates, I really liked being up there with David. After lunch we met up with David J and Ryan Van Steenburgh at the Silver Snail. David’s favorite comic shop ever. It was HUGE. After that we went to the Eaton Center (and met up with Tara) which is their mall, like the Fashion Show. At the Eaton Center David bought me a beautiful black winter coat. I love it. David’s dad then met us at Nathan Phillips Square and took us to the Toronto temple, which wasn’t actually in Toronto. It was a bit further away. It was amazing there. I love the temple. So small, and David, I, and James all did a session there. We stopped at Tim Hortons on the way home from the temple.

Thursday, October 15^th, 2009- We left David’s home today and started our trek back to Vegas, James gave us his truck to drive cross country, so we loaded it up and headed to Niagara Falls. The falls was too wet for me, but it was something neat to see once in my life. The big excitement for me in Niagara was Rossi Glass. It was a famous glass blowing shop, where they work in front of you and have thousands of pieces to choose from. It is one of three places in the world who make cranberry glass. We were there for about 3 hours or so if not more looking for something for mom and something beautiful for me to take home. While we were there one of David’s mission companions and his wife came to say hello. That was a nice little treat. We saw them, bought our glass, sent our post cards and crossed the border. We were officially back in the United States and taking the 80 home.

This is the part of the trip where things get boring. I’m sick with a cold, and we have 38 hours of driving to do. After Niagara we stop in Palmyra and saw some church history sites which weren’t as exciting as I wished they were. The only thing that I really liked was the Sacred Grove. I was disappointed with the rest. After we stopped we drove until David got tired which was somewhere in upstate New York, I think it was Dunkirk.

Friday, October 16^th, 2009- I’m still sick but we get up and drive through the rest of New York, the little portion of Pennsylvania, Ohio, Indiana, Illinois, Iowa, and stopped for the night in York Nebraska.

Saturday, October 17^th, 2009- It gets a little more exciting today, I’m still sick, but we finish up Nebraska and decide to stop in Parker, Colorado to see the Govoreau’s. It was SO good to see them. I’ve missed them. As we were pulling into Parker, the truck started doing something funny, so we figured we ought to get it checked out. So we dropped it off at a place Kathy referred us too and while they were looking at it we went to lunch with Kathy and Emily. After lunch we found out the barrings in the front were falling apart and it was going to cost about $2,000 to fix the problem. They also said they couldn’t get to it until Monday, but we explained our situation and did us a favor and hired a guy to come stay late so we could have it late that night. So, we decided to stay the night at the Govoreau’s which was nice because David and I, and Kathy and James, went on a double date to see Where the Wild Things Are (which was a horrible movie). We sure did love being with them.

Sunday, October 18^th, 2009- We woke up at like 5am, James and Kathy woke up with us to say good bye and we were off. We finished driving through Colorado, drove through Utah, stopped in New Harmony, and had dinner with Mom and Ross in St. George (gave mom her glass and dropped off trees), then headed onward to Vegas, and got home at about 10pm to Dad’s to see Caiden and give them the things we brought back.

THE END.

Christmas letter 09

Dearest Everyone,

Hooray! It is the time when we get to update you on our year! What have we been up to? Well, January I found a new and interesting job that I’m rather enjoying. I work for Chrysalis, a group home, for men with intellectual disabilities and behavioral problems; I have never experienced anything like it. It’s been a good learning opportunity on the patience and people front and that’s been good for me J. David is still working for Naylor Solar and loving “saving the universe one solar panel at a time” as he put it and we are still both working for Celebrate Kids, dressing up and making magic.

Earlier this year David officially received “permanent resident” status in the states which meant we FINALLY got to go up to Canada. I saw my first hockey game, met a good chunk of David’s family and friends, went to Niagara Falls, checked out Toronto, saw my first raccoon (it was awesome!), found out when a Canadian says something is “up the street” they really mean it is like 10 miles away, and it was confirmed I really don’t like the cold. David loved being back home in his natural habitat with family and friends and showing me his stomping grounds. We ended our trip in Canada by driving the 30+ hours home back to Las Vegas! SO much fun!

This past year at church David and I had to opportunity to serve the youth together. David in the Young Men organization (boys 12-18yrs.) and I was in the Young Women (girls 12-18yrs.) It was neat to go out to activities together for service projects or just to have fun. Recently though, I was called into the Primary to teach the 7-8 year olds, which I am totally pumped for! David shall carry on in the youth alone.

David and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary in August, by going to San Diego. We went to Sea World for the day, where I got a killer sunburn and David thought it was neat to see all the sea creatures up close. The next morning David woke me up at 4:30am for a surprise, which turned out to be a hot air balloon ride! Gotta love him! The entire weekend was so nice to just relax with each other and celebrate US!

David is still rockin’ the xbox and working on his art skills. I started making cards as a hobby and in January will be going back to school as Hospitality major, which is pretty much an event coordinator. We both like to go indoor skydiving, go to dinner at my dads and play with my little brother and sister, hang out with friends, go up to Utah to visit my family, and spend a lot of time watching movies. Oh how we love married life without babies!

I’m pretty sure this was all the major events in life this year, new and old jobs, permanent residence, Canada, anniversary, hobbies, church…yup! Love and miss you all, have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Love, David and Britni Richards!

Memories of my #2

Yesterday i got the worst news i have ever received. I have gotten bad news before, but nothing like this. Around 5pm i got a text saying Robi Sundell (my #2 man after David) had gotten in a long boarding accident, flight for life had come out to get him and he'd been unconscious for 20 minutes. I was in shock and denial. I had a feeling in my heart that this was it, but didn't want that answer so i swept it under the bed. The worst feeling the the world i thought was embarrassment. But i have found something that one ups it. Anxiously waiting for news, hoping it is the good rather than the bad. I had gotten a call from Aunt Jan saying they got him on a ventilator, he was in a coma, and wasn't wearing a helmet (typical Robi). By 10:30pm i got message that said Robi had been pronounced Brain Dead and they were pulling the life support today at 1pm once all the family got up there. Shocked, devastated, tears, hurt, angry. How can someone make that kind of decision after only 5 1/2 hours??? I learned that you can't come back from no brain activity. Recovery does not happen. Alas i called upon my Heavenly Father for comfort. I'd been hoping the news was still incorrect somehow, but as i knelt down, trying to breath, i got a confirmation and the comfort i had been asking for.

Last time i saw Robison was last month when David went to Canada to help pack up his home and room. Robi was my "date" to 3 receptions. I'm glad it hadn't been ages since i'd seen him and it wasn't only for a minute. He is pretty well the only guy i have been able to hang out with alone since i've been married and David won't worry. Some things i love about him is the fact for our wedding gift, he got David onsie G's...that he wore on our honeymoon, lol thanks Robi. I love the time he took David and i riding in The Jewel. I was sick to my stomach, and yet it was some how SO fun. Little, Amanda and I went up to Provo for Spring break, and Robison, Mikey, Jeff, Little, Boyd and I decided at 10pm at night we were going to go on an adventure to Hobbitville in SLC. So ridiculous lol. I miss the 2am phone calls telling me about what date he just went on. I loved planning activities with him in the singles ward, and that he'd make time for me while i was up in Provo. Breakfast was our thing. We'd go out or i would go to his apt and he'd make me waffles. Robi has always been there for me, whether i am a crying nut case who just needs an ear, a date, friend, brother, advice, or just someone to hang out with, i can count on Robi. There are 2 things that mean the world to me, one- that Robi was at my sealing and i know he's have driven/flown across the country to be there and two. I only invited 2 friends to be at my endowment session apart from David and Aunt Jan. Robi made it a point to be there. And he has no idea how much that meant to me. Oh how i love him, miss him, and will always remember him. My life has been better knowing him. Wingman. Gentleman. Good man.

Exciting News!!!

No, i'm not pregnant.

I just changed me page and got on for the first time May, that is all. Everything is well, David went to Comic Con in July, I went to girls camp last week, and we both are going to San Diego (Temecula) tomorrow for our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSAY!!! Hoo Raw!!! Whoever said the first year of marriage was the hardest is a liar. The End.

Brit

Update.

Since i got my new job i have been really slacking on my blog. It is the last thing i want to do in my spare time. However, I got to keep this thing up every once in a while i suppose.

David officially has his "green card" permitting him permanent residence in the states. The day we had our interview, directly after we found out we passed, we went home and bought our tickets to go to Canada. We are officially going October 9th-18th. Well, not the full time. We are leaving on the 15th to drive back home with all Davids stuff from Canada. I totally can't wait. It is going to be a blast. 

David is in the process of his license. He took his written and passed on Friday and has his driving test on June 26th. 

We have been to a few shows this year so far. In March we went and saw The Airborne Toxic Event. In April I drove to Utah with a friend and saw the Pussy Cat Dolls and Britney Spears, and in May, David and i saw No Doubt, Paramore, and The Sounds at Tiger Jam. Then I took Sondae to Taylor Swift last night. Gloriana and Kellie Pickler opened for her. Gotta love going to shows.

I finally saw Grandma and Grandpa P after all this time and it was fabulous. We were there for five hours talking about everything..Valentine’s day was on a Saturday and I woke up at 5:30am to make David a “pink” breakfast. It didn’t really turn out as I’d have liked though. He wasn’t as into it as I thought he might be. He however, took me up to the temple and we did sealings and then came home for a bit and then he took me on a surprise outing. We went out to Pahrump to a dry lake bed (though it wasn’t so dry due to the rain the night before) and had dinner out there. It was neat and the stars were fantastic. Young Women’s has been good. I stink at teaching the lessons, but besides that I have a blast being in there with the girls. I caved and cut my hair in February way short and now am regretting it. It is perfect for work, but other than that no good. I can’t really do anything cute with it. No fun.

For my birthday mom sent me really really pretty flowers at work which I love. She does it every year and it never gets old. Then when I got home, David had me open the gifts he got me and it was scrapbook stuff I have been wanting, and then he took me out to the Melting Pot. Yum! We decided we were going to make it a tradition for my birthday, I am totally okay with that too! 

For Davids birthday it was a 3 day event. Sunday we had dinner with my family while Caiden was there and then on his actual birthday on Tuesday I took him out to Landry's for seafood and gave him his tickets to Tiger Jam, then on Thursday had a bit of a bday bash with Jhon and Kim Mosley, Chris Baugh, Amanda Ebert, Rachel and Christian Wood, and Britney Roberts. Speaking of Britney--I had friends finally come home off the mission. William Springall in Jan. and Britney and Josh McDonald in April. I am glad they are all home, but am soooo glad Britney is home. 

David has been working 9-12 hour days for Naylor which is good.  I got moved to the medical dept at Chrysalis and didn’t like it at first, but now love it. It sometimes is crazy as it is a dept. full of girls, but all in all is fun and good for me. I have a new best buddy. I attract Canadians ;). My friend from high school Jakob Tobler is engaged to a girl from Edmonton, Alberta and she is my left side. With David on my right and Steph on my left, life is fantastic. 

Well i suppose this is all for now. Just thought i would give a little update.

Brit

a little update from jan 28th

Okay, so I haven’t really written much about my new job at Chrysalis. I had a weeks worth of training from Jan. 6th-10th and then started work on the 12th. I work in what is called the Day Program and drive transport. When I was hired for the job I knew I would be serving men with disabilities, I, like everyone else was under the impression that I would be serving maybe elderly men, or men whose families could no longer care for them. We were all VERY wrong. I got to work the first day to find out that Chrysalis was the last stop for many of our clients. Most of the behaviors include sexual assault, elopement, physical and verbal aggression, and kleptomania, but was certainly not limited to these. Their disabilities are vary diverse as well, suffering from down-syndrome, autism, cerebral palsy, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, schizoaffective disorder, and every man in the program has been diagnosed with mental retardation.

Our clients are very much like children. They throw tantrums over trivial and minute problems just like a child, but the repercussions are more damaging. They have bad days like the average person, except their moods are more extreme. When I first walked into my job on Monday morning for the first time, I didn’t know what to think. The first thing I saw and recognized were that all of these men were children of God. Second, I believe they were all chosen or volunteered, and brought themselves forward to live their time on Earth this way because they knew someone had to take the job. They also knew, with God’s help, could endure the challenge placed before them or God knew they could endure the struggle. I immediately felt compassion. Within a few days though, I would struggle with the task at hand.

Day one-Assigned to my first two men, one with MR and one with MR as a result from brain damage from a wreck. I was threatened to be sexually assaulted.
Day two- Good
Day three- One of my clients was told he couldn’t have a soda and eloped. He wouldn’t respond to my calls and anytime I got within 5 feet of him, he took a swing at me. I also struggled with the support of my staff, director, and manager.
Day four-Good
Day five- Good

The first week apart from my clients, I struggled with family. After the first days incidents, David immediately wanted me to quit. Everyone was upset including my husband, father, step mother, previous exchange student, and friends in our Family Home Evening group. After the first day, I was so mentally worked up from what everyone was saying and telling me that I couldn’t do the job, that I didn’t know if I could go back, but I felt I should, so I did. The second day David told me he didn’t and wouldn’t support my job at all, it was too dangerous and I should quit. I was in the bath, bawling my eyes out in a new pair of heels, mentally preparing my Young Women’s lesson when I knew I had to stay. I was listening to an EFY track from 2004, when the song “His Love” started to play. “Jesus loved the man who could not see or understand”, my lesson was on Christ’s example, and there it was in the lyrics. He STILL loved them. It wasn’t conditional according to their behavior. It was more confirmation I needed to stay. The comfort in the job hadn’t come yet, but the confirmation to stick with it had. That got me through Day three’s incident and helped me endure everything that my family was saying to bring me down and tell me I couldn‘t do it. After that, the 3 day weekend came quick and it was well enjoyed with my husband. When Tuesday came I didn’t know what to expect. I was reassigned to two new guys, one autistic and the other bipolar and of course both suffered from MR. I also was asked to take the 5:45am-1:30pm morning transport shift in exchange for my 8am-3:30pm shift. I accepted. Anything during the day is Chrysalis’ time as long as I get my nights. I would start training the next day and leave my guys to another staff, not that I was disappointed as one of my new clients immediately made me uneasy.

The week was short and hectic, but I survived. I was so frustrated with my job though and how it was affecting me. I started becoming jumpy at home when David was being playful with me, and my mind was on edge at the office. I’m not a particularly angry person, so to walk into an unpredictable room every day definitely left me with fear. By the end of the week though, I felt like half of my battle had been won. I at least had made friends with the staff and knew I had their support. If anything with my clients became unsafe, they would at least have my back. This started to put my mind at ease, that I was not alone.

Weekend #2 was nice and relaxing, but it seemed the second my mind knew Monday was nigh it started to play tricks on me and tell me I couldn’t do the job, it was unsafe, I shouldn’t be there, the pay was awful for what I had to deal with and the hours were too early. I walked into work Monday morning just as scared as I was the first week. I literally felt like I needed to quit. However, my rational mind told me ‘no’. Chrysalis spent a full 5 days training me in NEO, Soar 1 & 2, medication, first aid, CPR and Human Rights, and proceeded to train me for a new shift that would be an asset to them later on. No, I could not give up that easily. I had to see what my superiors could do for me or suggest. So, I brought my concerns and fears to the attention of my director, Meagan. As I heard myself telling her how I felt more comfortable and in control on the confined space of the van than in the room full of staff, I soon was able to pinpoint what my problems and concerns were a little more. One, was that I am an incredibly organized and structured person, and that is how the van was, where in the office, the room was full of chaos and no set routine. Two, I didn’t fully understand the guys. Just by talking with Meagan even though not much was resolved, I found that just making her aware of how I was feeling relaxed me. The next day on Tuesday, she set me up with an appointment with one of the Behavior Specialists. I knew whom she was as she was in my singles ward, Zandra. Relaxation was present even more than the day before. I started to understand a little more and was glad that I had more support and someone who seemed to understand and know how I was feeling. I left feeling great and more of my burden lifted.

And here I am tonight, after Day 12 feeling more confident and relaxed at my job. There are definitely still going to be tense and stressful days I’m sure, however, I feel I have won half the battle, by having the support of my staff, exercising the separation of my feelings from home and work, and TALKING to someone about my concerns because they CAN help. Even though my clients rotate to someone new in 2 days and it has taken me a week and a half to understand them and it will benefit me in the future. One of these days it will just click, and I will get their respect.